Have you ever thought about something you wanted to do and just kept putting it off?
That’s how I was with yoga.
I have been constantly thinking about taking a Vinyasa yoga class. I was craving the movement, the mindfulness, and the calmness. But, I just kept putting it off because I couldn’t find a studio that was in my town that worked for me. It was an excuse!
As I’ve mentioned in several posts prior, after having my second son, an awakening or break down happened to me. It started during the pregnancy but I just brushed it off thinking it was the hormones, which I’m sure it was. After the birth of my son, I did the same thing, just brushed it off due to hormones.
But 9 months later, it’s hard to keep brushing it off. It’s been a struggle to lose the baby weight which is huge for me as a coach and as a person with body images (more on that in later posts I’m sure). That topped with feeling worthless, alone, depressed just added to knowing something was not right.
I turned to self-development and self-love work. I saw a therapist for a bit and felt good enough to stop, but I’ve recently booked another appointment. I actually booked it after posting Life is not a Highlight Wheel.
The self-development and self-love have been eye-opening! To say I’m back to myself is a lie and honestly, I don’t think I’ll ever be back there. That’s not a bad thing, in fact it’s a great thing…I think I’ll be better.
So how does this back story have anything to do with yoga?
During this process of getting back to feeling more like me, I’ve realized the things I most resist are those I need most in my life.
Meditation being one (blog post coming soon on this one….HUGE awaking here).
Writing being another.
And now yoga.
Both meditation and writing, I kept telling myself I didn’t have time. I was too tired at night or I didn’t have enough time in the morning since that was my time to get my workouts in.
Once I realized this was a bunch of bull and just did it, I realized how nuts I was not to be doing these things. Meditation has provided me with clarity, balanced, and mindfulness.
Writing…wow this one is bigger than I could have ever thought. It started with just taking 5 minutes to write whatever was on my mind plus what I was grateful for in a journal to creating this blog.
Writing has energized me and given me joy. It has shown me I am actually creative, something I didn’t think I had in me.
Now yoga, once I committed to trying a yoga class, the experience was life changing. Yes, it was that amazing. In fact I call it magically and I NEVER use that word.
For my first class, I went in with expectations that the room would be packed with beautiful yogis doing crazy poses. The room was definitely packed, but there were all different types of people at all different levels. Some were doing crazy headstands while others enjoyed child’s pose.
What I did not expect is that once the class began, I felt for the most part like it was just me and the voice of the yoga teacher.
The movement was exactly what my body needed. I was sweating and it felt like a great workout and a massage at the same time. When we went into meditation, my mind was quite and clear. When I stood to leave, I felt a lightness and calmness I hadn’t felt EVER.
It was like a runners high. I felt so relaxed, so ready for whatever the day brought and so rejuvenated. So needless to say, I bought a pass and now am going one to two times a week.
Whatever you are holding yourself back from doing, DO IT! It most likely is what you need. I was listening to a podcast with Elizabeth Gilbert and she mentioned following your curiosity. I believe this is similar…if you are curious follow that, it’s a clue to bigger things!
Till next time…sparkle on!