To Just Be…

It’s been a few weeks since I last wrote.  Things weren’t feeling right and I needed to hit the pause button.

Did you ever feel like you were doing all the right things to get you were you need to be but something felt off?

That’s what happened to me.

Around this time of year, I self-reflect.  This year all I kept hearing was stop, slow down, really think about what you want and what is going to be best for you.  You do NOT have to say yes to everything.

And that is exactly what I have been doing.

It started with my career in corporate America.  As with most big companies there is change.  This year more than ever and it caused me to stop and take a step back and ask a lot of questions.  I’m typically a yes girl, but I found myself saying I need to think about it more and more.

It’s funny how you think people are going to be upset or not respect you when you say no but that couldn’t be further from the truth.  By me saying no, it opened up doors I didn’t even think were possible and gained me more respect than I thought I could gain.

Next my physical health has suffered for over a year and 1/2.  I finally  took action and listened to my intuiition.  I scheduled an appointment with a holistic nutritionist and guess what?

I’m not crazy.  There is a reason why I’m not losing the weight and why I’m getting injured.  We are working out how to fix that by eating the right foods and working on the areas that are the weakest.

Through that process, I realized I need to focus on me.  My health.  My family.  My career.  Nothing else matters at this moment.  I can’t help others if I can’t fix my own health issues.  I can’t be the best version of myself to my family and my co-workers if I can’t fix my own health.

I love coaching and as my pause button was going on, I knew I had to pause coaching as well.  My passion was turning into I “have to do this” instead of I “love doing this or want to do this.”

I will always be a coach because it’s part of me and I love everything about it. Which made it that much harder to hit the pause button on this part of my life.  So my coaching will be in the form of sharing my journey on my terms.

What does that mean?

It means I blog when I want to blog not when an expert tells me I should be (every day on the same day at the same time).

It means not using Facebook because to be honest I’m not that big of a fan of it anymore.

It means continuing my journey on Instagram because that is my favorite social media platform.  When I do it depends on my mood and if I have thinigs to share.  So, if I want to do stories, I do stories.  If I want to post, I post.  If I want the weekend off, I don’t post

It’s time to just be.

To be able to go through the trial and errors  of my health and figure out how to heal my body.

To be able to advance in my career in ways I didn’t know were possible.

To be able to be with my family and not have anything that needs to be done after the kids go down.

To be with my husband on date night or on the couch watching TV and scrolling through Instagram.

To be healthy and fit to buy a new goal outfit.

To be injury free to run with my son.

To just be me, a better version of me.

Till next time…Sparkle on!